Our lives since homecoming

Since Carlos got home it seems like our world has not stopped just going and going and going in fifth gear, non stop.. its been quite stressful. We had his parents for the homecoming and that started us out pretty exhausted to begin with. Then, we recieved our orders since we re enlisted, then the money and paying off everything. Not to mention buying everything we needed, and didn't really need but wanted.. The move to the middle of freaking nowhere, and then the miscarriage... UGH.. that jolted our perfect little world... Then, my grandma getting diagnosed with breast cancer, breast surgery and now undergoin radiation treatment... WOW... EVERYONE around me is pregnant or recently had a baby... Talk about dealing with alot.. I have the most amazing husband and son and family and friends ever... We got our house broken into the first week we were there.. then two weeks after we have the cops breaking into our house at 6am cuz someone pranked 911 to our house! Geez!!! What is a girl to do?
So... Now, i'm back in idaho... for a visit home.. and so carlos can get hunting out of his system.. I'm up late... alone. Bryce is fast asleep.. and it gives me alot of time to think here in the dark about the things that have happend ever since we have re enlisted... Where we really meant to? Are these all signs that we made the wrong choice?? It just really boggles me... We are really nice, loving people... what are we doing wrong? hmmm.. am i meant to have another child.. do i want to try again and set myself up for another world altering jolt? I really want another child.. but is it worth the chance..???
Meanwhile with all this going thru my mind lately... i've got a hubby gone in the mountains somewhere hunting.. lol... and bryce who is gonna be 18 months old on the 18th, wow time sure flies... and its like.. where has the time went? Carlos has been home a little over 4 and a half months, seems like he just got home.. we've barely had time to ourselves... he's always working or we're running around doing stuff..
I'm in the process of starting school.. i'm doing online courses thru devry university... it should take me at the most 2 years to get my associates degree... This is my way of "coping" with everything... i'm tired of military life, and i'm tired of not having a way out of it! i'm tired of being away from our friends and family... So.. I'm taking classes so that in 2011 when it comes time to either re enlist or get out, we can get out!!! yahooo. i'm super excited and so are the people i have told!!
Alot has been going on.. but i'm keeping my chin up and looking forward to the next couple years as just me and my family.. in the middle of the, excuse my language, fucking desert.. but its so true..!! Bryce will be almost 6 when we return to idaho for good! can you believe that? holy crap.. its really crazy and almost scary to me to think about...
I know this is my first official blog.. and i'm sorry if its depressing but i needed to get it out in the open! My life is far from perfect.. but ONE thing i am sure of is... i love my husband and son and they mean the world to me... everything else could fall off the face of the earth and i would still keep my chin up!! okay, well maybe more then just them matter.. but you get my point...
I guess we just hit a rough patch... We have no bills, everything we could dream of but shit keeps trying to kick our little butts.. Its okay Lord, next time we WILL make the right choice! lol
Well, until next time! ADIOS!!!

Tiffany Valadez